Back to School Blues.....

Well, it's finally here.... My last day at home with Wyatt before going back to school. I have dreaded this day the entire summer. For the past 11 weeks I have gotten to spend every day with this little guy and I'm having a hard time dealing with the fact that it's about to end... We are very lucky that Wyatt will be staying with a woman who's daughter went to my school for the past couple of years. She has two kids, but they are both in school and Wyatt will be the only kiddo that she keeps, so he will be sure to get plenty of attention. She also lives really close to school, I can go sometimes at lunch and could be there in no time at all if I needed to. She really is great, that's not the problem at all. The problem is that I am scared to death of missing out on moments with my little guy. What if he has some of his "firsts" and I'm not there to see it?? That would break my heart! Or what if he would rather be with the babysitter than at home?? (I know, I know... I'm being alittle paranoid right now, but I can't help it) I am glad that I work at a school and am off work by 4:00 and get plenty of breaks during the year, but right now that doesn't make this any easier. Maybe someday I will be a stay at home mom, but for now it's back to work. This may all seem alittle selfish or like I'm just feeling sorry for myself and well, that might just be the case! But the next few days (maybe weeks!) are going to be hard for me, so selfish or not, I'm asking that everyone say alittle prayer for Wyatt and me as we adjust to this new situation.